L shrugged. “I’m not doing this because I want to.”
Light wasn’t sure if he was imagining the enthusiasm in the detective’s voice. L, I know you still suspect me of being Kira, but how can this help? Why would anyone want to chain themselves to a murderer? How long will it take to prove my innocence? What if we never solve the case? Will he suspect me forever? He must have considered that. Even he can’t be certain we’ll catch Kira, or… Light sighed. Is he convinced he’ll eventually find evidence linking ME to the murders? No. Even L isn’t that sure of himself. He must have considered failure. But then, why would he go ahead with this? He can’t intend for us to be chained together forever... can he?
“Huh?!” Misa screeched. ”This is what you meant by being together 24 hours a day? Two guys chained together is gross! This is what you’re into? You were with Light at school too...”
“I’m not doing this because I want to,” L said. It isn’t gross, is it? What does she mean ’this is what I’m into’? This is a situation I’ve got myself into I suppose, but I don’t see how it’s gross... It’s not like I’m going to enjoy living like this. I just want to be able to keep an eye on him. L frowned. Is that wrong? Yes. No... I want to keep an eye on him because he might be, or might have been, or might one day become, Kira. There is nothing gross about a detective keeping an eye on a suspect - Even if it does mean being chained together 24 hours a day. Yes. I am 83% certain that Misa is overreacting. Light does not seem to be objecting, but then, Light’s intelligence is very near my own. I suppose he has thought through my reasoning…
“But Light belongs to me,” Misa said. “And if you’re always together, then when am I supposed to go on dates with Light?”
L sighed. Dates? He hadn’t thought of that. And did being in a relationship mean that the parties involved become the property of one another? L couldn’t imagine anything worse than belonging to someone… and what was involved in owning someone? Was it like having a pet? Was Misa now responsible for feeding Light and cleaning his litter tray? Surely this wasn’t the norm. But then, Misa was clearly obsessed... L scratched his left ankle with his right foot. Would Light be angry with him for ruining this strangely intense relationship? L looked up from his toes. Light seemed to be grinding his teeth.
Light clenched his fists, noticing the odd way his muscle tightened against the handcuff. Since when do I belong to anyone? Especially a girl! Especially her! He tried not to let his confusion show. He was sure he must have had a good reason for going out with her, but he couldn’t think of anything that would justify his putting up with her for so long. He could already feel a headache coming on and she’d only opened her mouth thirty seconds ago. Why, oh why, doesn’t she just shut up already?
“The dates will naturally be with the three of us...” L said.
Light inhaled through his nose and tried to picture the air circling around his skull and holding the headache at bay. If L was there the dates might not be so bad. Things were always better when L was around.
“Wha? You’re saying we have to kiss in front of you?”
Eugh. Light’s headache flared and his stomach churned at the thought of kissing her. Again.
“I didn’t say you have to do anything,” L said. ”But I will be watching.”
“Huh? What the hell? I knew it! You are a pervert!” Misa said. God, she’s annoying. Light tried to focus on the various ways in which he might get rid of her. Unfortunately, most of them were illegal.
“Light-kun,” L said. “Please shut Misa-san up.”
Finally! Light was amazed that L had put up with her stupid babble for so long.
“Misa don’t be so difficult,” he said. “You were definitely the one who sent those videos; be grateful that you’re allowed this much freedom.”
“Hey, what are you saying, Light?” Misa looked up at him. ”I’m your girlfriend, right? Don’t you trust your lover?”
“Girlfriend?” Light snorted. “All I know is that you say you fell in love with me at first sight and now you won’t leave me alone.” He hadn’t meant to say it so bluntly but, then again, it was all true and he didn’t know how else he could have worded it.
“Then you took advantage of that and kissed me...?” Misa hit him and Light’s clenched fists twitched. I only kissed her to shut her up! Not that it worked…
“About this love at first sight...” L said. He wasn’t sure why Light was allowing Misa to hit him repeatedly like that, but it was disturbing. He had seen cases in the past where obsessive relationships rapidly progressed into violence. Perhaps his keeping an eye on Light would at least protect him to some degree. L spent the next few minutes questioning Misa about her relationship with Light, their meeting and her views on Kira. All of her responses convinced him that she was the second Kira, and that he was right to keep her under observation, especially now she had displayed such violent behaviour in front of him.
L explained the living arrangements and was surprised by the disappointment in Light’s face when he mentioned that their hotel room would be connected to Misa’s. Surely he isn’t that opposed to having his girlfriend nearby? I certainly don’t want her there.
Eventually, Aizawa removed Misa from the room and L was able to focus on Light.
“Light-kun,” he asked. “Are you serious about Amane?” Please say no. Please say no. Please say no.
“No, as I said, it’s all one sided.”
Thank Bob! You could do so much better! L had always suspected that Light would be better suited to someone smarter, with whom he would be able to have sensible, intelligent conversations. “Then could you at least act like you’re serious about her?” he said. He felt terrible for asking; he wouldn’t force his worst enemy, even someone who had proved themselves to be Kira, to spend time with that brat, but the killer had to be caught. “We know that she is involved with the second Kira from the video tape evidence... and also that she loves you.” L felt strangely angry about that last part, probably because he didn’t think Misa’s love for Light was particularly normal or healthy.
“You want me to get close to her and make her reveal things about the second Kira?” Light said. L guessed his reluctance was understandable, but surely Light wanted to clear his name.
“Yes, I think you are capable of doing it Light-kun. This is one of the reasons that I released the two of you.” One of the very minor reasons… L tried not to think about it too much, but his main motive for releasing Light was that he had missed their conversations, the way Light always saw trough his traps, parried L’s move’s with his words and simultaneously returned the attack. L found himself remembering Light’s tennis skills and making, once again, the same comparisons between that match and their every conversation.
“Ryuzaki, even if it is to solve the Kira case, I could never play with a woman’s emotions like that,” Light said.
Wow! L thought. He’s so noble! He’s like one of those wonderful knights in romances.
“I’m sorry,” Light said. “But you need to understand that, to me, taking advantage of a person’s feelings like that is the most despicable thing a person can do.”
L’s smile faded. Despicable? Does he think I am despicable for suggesting it?
“What’s wrong Ryuzaki?” Light asked.
“Nothing,” L sighed. “You’re right Light-kun, but I would appreciate it if you could remind her to make sure she doesn’t reveal things about our investigation to anyone.”
It was late and the rest of the task force had retired for the night, but L and Light were still sitting at their computers. They hadn’t spoken since the others had left. L hadn’t known how to respond when the task force had bid them goodnight and wished them pleasant dreams. He’d glanced at Light, who was sitting at the computer beside him, but the teenager had seemed lost in thought. L didn’t want to be the one to bring up the subject of sleeping together. Now that he thought about it, being chained to Light Yagami 24/7 was going to be problematic... but he couldn’t back out now. He would not let Kira win.
The silence couldn’t last much longer; L was running out of sweets - and he was desperate to use the toilet. He imagined Light must be feeling the same way. L chanced another sideways glance at the teen.
“L, will you please stop looking at me like that,” Light snapped. ”Unless that’s why you suggested this ridiculous situation? Just so you could stare at me?”
“I’m sorry Light-kun.” L said. “I was merely wondering if you might accompany me to the kitchen. I have run out of sweets. Also, I, um, I need to use the toilet facilities.”
Light smiled. He’d been hoping he wouldn’t have to be the one to bring up the issue. He’d thought being watched on security cameras was bad enough but this was clearly going to be an even more awkward and embarrassing period of his life. L cheeks were glowing and he was refusing to make eye contact so Light guessed the detective’s thoughts were running along similar tracks. He’d never seen this side of L before and he was surprised to find that a shy L was, if possible, even cuter than the confident one he knew and, well...
“Of course, L,” Light said. ”I could use a trip to the bathroom myself.”
“Good.” L said, still without looking up from his toes. ”Um, Light? I was wondering, how do you think we should wash whilst we are together?”
“Well,” Light whispered, leaning towards the detective. ”We could always take a romantic bubble bath...”
L choked on a mouthful of cake, toppled out of his strange sitting position and kicked the desk as he fell backwards off of his chair. Light looked down at the detective, who was now lying on his back and staring at the ceiling, and couldn’t help laughing. Not that he would have minded sharing a candle-lit bath with the detective, but clearly L wasn’t so keen on the idea.
L picked himself up and tried to concentrate on walking in a straight line. Perhaps I injured my foot on the table. It doesn’t hurt yet... but that would explain my unsteadiness. I don’t think I hit my head. But then, why do I feel so dizzy? And why am I still blushing? L headed for the bathroom, dragging Light behind him. I shouldn’t have been so startled really. Teenagers often joke about strange things.
“Light-kun,” he said. ”I would appreciate it if you would refrain from making jokes in such questionable taste.” L pushed open the door to the toilets and hurried into the first cubicle. “You wait there,” he snapped, slamming the door shut.
L placed one palm against the cubicle wall to steady himself and closed his eyes. He felt faint. Was that due to a lack of sugar in his bloodstream? Or maybe falling off his chair and standing up too quickly had affected him somehow. L sighed. No. It had been Light’s suggestion of a romantic bath that had done it. Now that the initial shock had worn off, L was left feeling both uncomfortable and miserable. He loved bubble baths, but he’d never even considered sharing one with another person... would such activities require an extra large tub in which to take place? Or was an ordinary bath supposed to accommodate two adult bodies? L shook his head. Surely not. Light is about the same height as I am - except that he stands up straight. No. There is no way we could fit in a bath together. Unless we crouched at either end... But that probably wouldn’t be considered romantic. A romantic bath must involve the individuals touching one another, maybe even... kissing. L shook his head and rubbed his hands over his face. Why am I even thinking about this?
Light had never seen L move so fast, or sound so angry. Was he really that offended by the idea of candles and bubbles and… Light closed his eyes and smiled. And our naked bodies touching underwater. L’s beautiful black hair dripping over his face, stopping just short of those perfect lips, lips which could- fuck! Light’s pants suddenly felt a lot tighter. Idiot. You can’t afford to think about L like that. Not now that you’re going to be around him all the time. He’s not stupid; he’ll notice. Light heard the toilet flush and L’s cubicle door unlock. Fuck. He looked down to assess how noticeable the bulge in his trousers was. Fuck, fuck, fuck! As L’s door opened Light dived into the next cubicle.
Light leant his back against the cubicle door and closed his eyes. How the hell am I supposed to cope? It’s going to be impossible not to think like that when he’s constantly attached to my arm. This is so humiliating. And it’s all Kira’s fault. I’ll fucking kill him when we find him. Light tried to direct his thoughts towards the many reasons for catching Kira. It wasn’t possible to remain aroused whilst thinking about murder. Well, he wasn’t naive enough to think it wasn’t possible... but he didn’t personally find that sort of thing exciting. Light shook his head and rubbed his hands over his face. We’d better find that bastard quickly.
L was surprised by Light’s sudden desperation to use the toilet. Perhaps the teen had needed to go as much as he had; after all, it had been a long day and Light had had a coffee a few hours ago, or maybe… L’s mind wondered back to Light’s suggestion of a bubble bath. He’s not upset about something, is he? No, surely not. Light was joking and I asked him not to. That’s nothing to be upset about.
After a few minutes, Light emerged and they crossed the room to wash their hands. L had never noticed how loud Light’s footsteps were before, the heels of his shoes clacked against the beige floor tiles and echoed around the empty bathroom. L looked down at his own silent feet as they reached the washbasins.
“Light-kun?” he said. “Seriously, how do you think we should wash?”
“Um.” Light sounded different, almost embarrassed. L looked up to find that a pink glow had indeed filled the teen’s cheeks. It reminded him of the thin line between the red and white parts of a strawberry. I wonder what that’s all about? Is it because I didn’t like his joke? “We could take separate shower cubicles,” Light said. ”With the chain going over the top?”
“Ah, yes. I suppose that might work,” L said. Why didn’t I think of that? ”I prefer to wash in the morning, so shall we turn in now?” “Yes, of course.” Light smiled. “It’s been a long, unusual day.”
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You may have read this story before, however, it is now edited and improved.
Innocence - Chapter SixWednesday 28th July 2004Innocence - Chapter Six by kit-kat-151
L was lying in bed, watching Light sleep. It was peaceful. L had been thinking about touching Light’s hand, which was resting on the pillow beside his head. He wouldn’t do it, but he wanted to. He wanted to know if Light’s skin was still as warm as before. What was that? L sat up. He was sure he’d heard movement in the corridor outside their room.
There was a knock at the door. L glanced at the display on Light’s watch. 3:00AM. Who on earth is that? L got out of bed and marched across the room. He stopped when the chain tightened, a metre or so from the door.
“Who’s there?” he whispered.
“L, it’s me.” Watari? L unlocked the door with his toes and kicked it open.
“What do you want, Watari. I could have been asleep.”
“But you weren
Innocence - Chapter FiveTuesday 27th July 2004Innocence - Chapter Five by kit-kat-151
Light opened his eyes, half expecting to find L staring at him again. But the detective was nowhere to be seen.
“L?” Light sat up and looked down at his wrist. Well, I’m still handcuffed. He can’t have gone far. Light followed the chain across L’s side of the duvet. “L?” he called, peering under the bed. The detective was lying there on the floor, staring up at the slats of the bed. Shit. “L?!” Light jumped of off the bed and crouched beside him. The detective still hadn’t moved. Shit, shit, shit. “L? Are you okay?” Light reached out to touch L’s wrist. Please be warm. Please have a pulse. Please, L… Move. Light placed his fingers on L’s skin.
“Boo.” L whispered.
Light scrambled backwards and hit his head on a table leg.
Innocence - Chapter FourMonday 26th July 2004Innocence - Chapter Four by kit-kat-151
L was tired. Not for lack of sleep; he never expected to manage two nights in a row. But he was tired anyway. He was usually able to get some work done at night, but he couldn’t concentrate. He couldn’t keep his mind on the case, because it refused to stop thinking about Light Yagami. Light had fallen asleep around 2am. L had watched him for a while, but even now, hours later, with his back to the sleeping teenager, L couldn’t focus. He couldn’t seem to go more than a few minutes without turning around to glance at him. This couldn’t be good, surely it wasn’t healthy? Light had to be Kira. But it was getting harder to pretend that was why he liked watching him. L wasn’t sure if it was because Light was his only friend, and the only person he knew with an IQ similar to his own, but he enjoyed Light’s company and... he cared about him. But that was ridiculous. How
Innocence - Chapter ThreeSunday 25th July 2004Innocence - Chapter Three by kit-kat-151
Light opened his eyes and went to rub them with his hands. The chain rattled as he raised his arm and he remembered where he was, and with whom. He angled his watch towards the dim moonlight streaming through the window. 2:39am. He glanced to his right; L was curled up under the duvet, still hugging his knees to his chest. Is he asleep? Light smiled. He’d been worried that L had trouble sleeping. Light was tempted to reach out and touch the older man. He could brush L’s hair aside, maybe even kiss him. But no. He wouldn’t do that. Imagine how awkward it would be if he woke up! Light sighed. He really shouldn’t be attracted to an older man who seemed intent on keeping him prisoner, but the more Light tried to ignore his desires, the more they see
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